I have always wanted/done what I could to help others. Sometimes secretly even, and those were fun to watch unfold, or hear about later. What a feeling, glorious! Growing up not knowing who the real ME was supposed to be, because of the mental games  & CSA from my father, Ive been dealing with Anxiety/Panic attacks, Depression, PTSD, Agoraphobia, OCD, for over 25 yrs. Therapy, meds & bio feedback, along with reading when I can concentrate. Ive tried to deal with & thought I was doing well, until Dec/Jan, as I had way to much to deal with! Had my first emotional meltdown, (the fear was crippling as my first anxiety/panic attack was). As I over extended myself, financially, physically, above all emotionally, I made some costly mistakes, and unfortunately being on soc sec I have a minimal income, which will be going to pay for the fees and late pymnts, for the next couple months. Which results in not having any means for basic necessities, Im hoping and praying that someone will understand the sincere severity of this mess & help me big or small to pay for this black cloud that is causing more fear & anxiety, as Im in a constant overwhelmed status. I just hope someone will be able to give me a hand up, to pull me from this hell I made!  Thank you for your time....